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It’s now 3.10am. Can’t sleep. Must be the tea…..Gulped down 3 glasses of Chinese tea, 2 mugs of Green tea and 1 cup of Raspberry tea. It never had any effect on me for 20 over years and now….It had me typing on my notebook before 2 hours til dawn breaks…No more late tea drinking from now on.

Yeah, with 4 days til countdown for another new year 2007, how can we not think of the what we have or NOT achieve for the past 361 days. I was just telling my hubby the other day….at a blink of an eye, before we even smell the coffee, our little girl will be grown up. It just freaks me out, thinking about this!!

Let me see, what were the downs this year for me. Like my sis and Ryan said, lots of challenges. Well, that is certainly a good word for it if we don’t count "problems" in.

Well, I had many headaches in the begining of the year while serving an employer. Work my butt off but got nothing out of it. So, I moved on and do things my way. Lo and behold, fairy Godmother must have love me and bestowed me with bravery and guts. We made changes in how we want our lives to be. We take control of what we have and strive to make the best out of it. Ever since then, I guess, sun shines everyday. It’s all about knowing what we want and being grateful for everything that we have. Other than that, losing a baby was extremely painful.

Highlights will be plenty. Xue Rou goes to school, we run our own soho business, make new friends (especially Markus from Austria, thanks for your wonderful friendship), meet old friend who is in New Zealand, family outing with parents-in-law (that is a rare ocassion) etc…oh, yes, finally become a proud owner of a digital camera. I have been using an analogue camera which makes me look like ancient history. Had it since 1997. Actually it was my hubby’s but seems like I’m more of the owner than him. I utilized it to the max. Even the salesperson whom I bought the new digicam could not believe I had it for so long and still using it. Unbelievable how he could think this way!! Just because nobody used analogue camera, he thinks these type of cameras are useless. Maybe it’s not such a big deal to many of you, but to me, digital camera of my own is a luxury…You cannot imagine how much I yearned to own a good one. Saving every scrap and penny I have just to get one.

It has been an amazing year for me. I have grown wiser, get to understand myself better and spiritually contented. I would not want to say "I should have done this or do that or I should have done better". Maybe there was much more to learn and I have not. Then again, maybe it was meant to be this way.

So to the new year, I welcome with open arms. May it brings joy, good health, peace and prosperity to all. Happy New Year 2007!

I have been thinking of putting my thoughts down for zillion times….but never really got to do it….And when I finally wanted to do it, laziness steps in and mind just went blanko. Like time, inspirations and thoughts can vanished into thin air very fast too.

Today is the day. I am just gonna do it. Don’t know know makes me do it now…Hmmm….Must be Xmas!! Hahahha….or hohoho!

Well, this is going be my first and it has to be a blast!

I have put up my Xmas tree which has been fully utilised since we move into our very own home in Year 2002. We don’t have real fir trees here…so make do with the fake ones bought from deparmental store..Wouldn’t it be great if we can get a real tree, with its fresh crisp, pine smell!!

Everyday of the month December, Xmas melodies are filled in the air throughout the whole house. I ‘ll make sure of it. Even when commuting in the car.

I wonder why do I do all these….Is it I am so afraid, one day, people just don’t feel this "Christmasy" feeling anymore? I just want to preserve it. I love Xmas all my life. It’s the best time of the year. Everything that is Xmas related, I want to be apart of it.

Funny that this year, my Xmas spirit is souring higher than ever. To remind myself one day when I looked back, December 2006 is just too fabulous….first it started off with termites invasion in my apartment unit toilets (funny that they love our toilet so much), then I accidentally spilt water into my hubby’s notebook, and the best part, we got into a back-to back car accident which crashed our whole rear window and left a terrible dent on the bonnet, tearing the paint and with crazy downpours these days, my car is gonna look like a bloody old junk soon despite of having it for a mere 2 years.

Normally I would have a fit when such things happened. But I sipped in all the "chrismasy" air and drank the jolly punch bestowed on me. I was like "Yeah, so what!! "…….When the accident happened, I told myself, put into practise the 90/10 theory by Stephen Covey. I then told myself, "I can’t let this dampen my spirit and kill my good mood the whole day". I did not let it affect my emotions. I let it go and just do the neccessary with a light heart. Though it was a long day with so many things to settle, I realised it really help me a lot. I found peace in my mind and in my heart. Just what I need and want.

So, I think this is gonna be the best Xmas ever to me, for I shall remember this December til my ashes are spread all over the world (I do not want to be buried 6 feet underneath).

Have a Merry, merry Xmas!! PEACE ON EARTH……